Bec and I both found so much comfort in knowing there was someone else going through this right now with us. We talked about our babies and we talked about our emotions, how other people seemed to see us, the memories we planned to have for our sweet babies, and even that which you should never have to talk to a friend about - your baby's funeral plans...
When Sebastian passed away only a week or so after Bec and I started talking, I felt really bad for her. I know that sounds silly right? Why would I feel bad for Bec when it was my baby that just died? Well I guess I didn't want her to lose hope in her baby's healing or making it to term. I felt so sad having to message her to tell her Sebastian was now in the arms of Jesus, like maybe it would make her lose heart for the rest of her journey? I don't think it did - well I hope it didn't. We continued to talk.
So let me introduce you to her princess just a little. Her name is Sienna Grace and she already has a big brother and a big sister. Sienna has anencephaly - and I know many of the angel mums who read here know it well. Today is Sienna's due date. She is still fighting away in her Mummy's tummy and I praise God for that! Thankyou Lord for such a special time Bec has been given with Sienna.
Anyway, the purpose of this post was that I wanted to share with you something special I made for Sienna this week.
As I was packing away all my sewing things, I came across some quilting squares I'd half-pieced together but never really found what they were meant to be for... well it hit me like a train. They were supposed to be for a little patchwork blanket for Sienna to hopefully be wrapped in when she was born - and a santuary where her mummy might be able to release her tears and let her heart grieve in times to follow...
I had desparately wanted to make Sebastian a little patchwork quilt of his own, inspired by the gorgeous quilt that my dear blog friend Stacy made for her princess Rachel when she was born. But Seb arrived before I got very far through it and so it made me a little sad. (I will go back to making it though, he still deserves it I think!)
I also remembered the beautiful personalised bracelet that Stacy had made for Rachel too, and that she wore. And I knew that every little princess deserves a bit of bling so I set out to make one for Sienna too.
|A very special hand-embroidered personalised quilt for Sienna to be wrapped in love...|
|Every little princess deserves a bit of bling...|
It feels good to get back into doing something I love...